the longer time stretches between us the more it starts to feel as if you never truly did exist and our love was never real; because you are perfect for me - and with you gone, how can i know that i had not all this time been dreaming and only now woken up?; but there - a message, a phone call - your silky voice and your loving thoughts they remind me once more my dream is real, my dream is you.
answers.
perhaps it is not I who must seek the answers
but the answers who must find me.
(I let go. I let God.)
Tired.
I am tired of feeling
And of trying to understand
The reason hiding
Behind all these emotions.
I am tired of being afraid
And of trying to fight
All the fears keeping me
From opening my heart.
So if you don't mind
I will let go of you
Hoping the Universe will bring
The answers I have been desperately seeking.
his character {a description}
How can somebody like you exist? Someone whose goodness radiates to such an extent that even being in your shadow feels warm. You have no attachments to how people ought to be; therefore your perception and judgment of them is always accurate and fair. No mean word ever comes out of your mouth; and on the rare occasions you show your tough side, there must have been a particularly strong reason to do so. You strive to be reliable and trustworthy, and you hold yourself accountable to your own standards. Although approachable, warm and friendly, you are fiercely private. You do not seek approval or power, which is why you never abuse your role as leader. In fact, you lead by example, and would never reprimand someone if you could be accused of the same behaviour. You know when to be serious, and also when it is okay not to be too serious. You can talk but you can listen too. You always seem to have everything under control, I suppose because you also aim to be organised. You are polite and treat everyone respectfully no matter how old or young they are. You frequently express your gratitude, even for little or sometimes insignificant things. You are encouraging even to those who do not need encouragement anymore. You are so amazing, and yet so humble: you have so many talents and skills but you never boast about them or show off. You just do your thing like it’s the most normal ordinary thing when you are really quite extraordinary … And I – I love all these wonderful things about you. Sometimes I think you are too good to be true.
in another life.
in another life, i would marry you.
but what if in another life, i had married you?
busy-ness.
Busy-ness it the thief of Time; yet our lives are only made of Time. Can we say we have a life if we never have time?
– extract from a letter I wrote to my soul mate
Not as much.
“I suppose I don’t expect you to love me …”
She added in a quiet voice after a small moment: “at least not as much as I love you …”
another wish.
How often have you thought of making me happy? More than once - surely. Is this another such instance Of you paying attention to my wants? Another wish is about to come true And it is all thanks to you.
conversations.
you are speaking to me of that much i'm aware but behind your words i feel like there's more: as if you were addressing me to communicate something other than what you are telling me. i respond mindlessly with words that mean nothing mirroring your language, and hoping deep inside you realise I'm addressing you to communicate something other than what i am telling you. And so do we keep on speaking not saying anything at all, and yet saying everything we both want each other to know ...
Wisdom & passion.
Maybe wisdom and passion are two sides of the same coin.