Her body perceived his absence most acutely: her eyes, so used to darting in his direction constantly, filled with disappointment at the sight of empty air where he usually stood; her lips, often fighting the impulse to curve upwards, no longer had a friend’s face to smile at; her ears, skilled in tuning in toContinue reading “{how the body feels absence}”
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the Billy bookcase.
It had taken her by surprise, how instantly a ball (of tears) had formed in her throat at the sight of a simple piece of furniture. And yet, here she stood in front of a plain white bookshelf, staring at its name tag, and remembering with piercing clarity an innocent conversation shared only some monthsContinue reading “the Billy bookcase.”
imagination
She may not be able to see him all that often, but there was something she had – something powerful, endless and readily-available: imagination. In her imaginary world, the boundaries of reality ceased to exist: she could now see him every day if she chose to – perhaps even multiple times a day; she couldContinue reading “imagination”
Dream visits
How lovely it is, always, to see you, even when it’s in a dream, as if your spirit had travelled through the night to meet mine, for the sole purpose of reminding me I am loved.
a prayer.
The sight of him takes her by genuine surprise, for she had not expected to see him. She watches him making his way to his desk; his walk is calm and peaceful. His hair is not as well-kept as usual, suggesting he had just been outside where the wind was blowing with unusual intensity forContinue reading “a prayer.”
gifts.
He had never given her anything, really: she had never received a letter, nor even a birthday card; she had never been given flowers, nor even a small piece of jewellery. He had, however, given her his time, many words of kindness, comfort and encouragement – even praise – a safe heart in which toContinue reading “gifts.”
{oh, the sadness}
She had arrived, full of expectation and anticipation. She had been waiting for this day with impatience ever since she had last seen him – now over a week ago, but not quite two. But oh, how it felt like such a long time! Sitting down on a chair in the staffroom and taking outContinue reading “{oh, the sadness}”
(im)patience.
in my patience you will find impatience. (because i am waiting – although i cannot wait – to see you again).
the contrary of jealousy.
She was never really jealous. On the contrary, she liked that others spoke to him, that they seemed to like him. She liked the idea of his light and his kindness reaching many: why be so possessive of these treasures, when the whole world could benefit from them?
true gentleman.
Kneeling down, he picked upThe lady’s napkin off the ground -Proof that he is kindAnd a true gentleman.
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